I Want That Star

i wanna dry ur tears | Thursday, October 19, 2006

mummy, im sry.. i din wanna make u cry. i dun wanna retain too. im so sry..

it is the cold hard truth.

it's hard lahh.

it's only 1 year n there're like tonnes of wonderful memories.

i decided to face reality.

RETAIN =)

sry ai lin cos i finished ur tissue jus now.. thanx. i guess it's time to wake up, AGAIN. like wat happened the last 2 times, when Mr tan told mi that i may have to join the n(a) ppl, n when Mr chia said tt i may have to retained. i managed to get pass both. but now, it's diff. it's too LATE.

now every1's worried bout my studies. mummy, daddy, bro, jie.. n mel(ruff ruff) n lots more. i feel so bad lah. makin them worry when i din really study for promos. it was my fault. aftall im not like jie or bro. they slack, but they do freakin well. i feel so out of place in the family. im a disgrace to my family n i noe it. ever since primary sch. i hate the feelin of being like tis. im anything as compared to jie. she's my idol. if only i jus die, all tis wont b botherin mi. freak it. there is no point!! no matter how hard i try i can nv b like jie n bro!!

im sry. i was lazy. i regret studyin only 3 days b4 promos. jus wanna say sry mummy. dn cry. it pains mi to c u in tears.

i love u mummy.

mayb if cindy was gone

u wont b so depressed

anymore.

i wish i nv existed.

sry.

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i like the font!! | Monday, October 16, 2006

it's

the

16th

again.

first

time,

aft

long,

stayed

home

slacked

the

whole

day

away.

i'll

never

wanna

out

the

16th

anymore.

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was i wrong bout her? i've thought bout it, there is no point in hate'in sum1. many things are buggin mi. i dunno if i shd trust my heart or mind.

i choose to believe my heart:

i saw ur sms.

dun worry.

no matter wat.

im sry tt i made u cry.

even aft wat happened on friday the 13, i stil thought tt we'll b frens. i jus felt weird. tt's all. =)

smile ^^

i need sum1, i feel vexed. bout everything in life. how i wish i cld jus vanish forever.

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BreAkuPs arE hArd.

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im sry, to make u wait for nth.. feel so bad.

RANDOM PIC OF THE DAY:

i m jus BORED. =(

oh well, i've got 18/80 lahhh. die. sobs* i guess i might retain. din dare to tel mummy, else she'll worry again. so sux LAHHH. hun said tt it might b better for mi to retain, i guess so too. but it's really hard to face the fact tt i sux a studyin.

GOSH.

lynny: i've got sumthin to tell u, remind mi tt it's "xyx"

vk: i can tel u too!!

manda: whine~

my life is so screwed up.

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confessions | Sunday, October 15, 2006

lynny's weird pose

i wasn't supposed to b in the picture. LOL

btw, lynny wrote tt on my back. >_<

n there's sumthin tt needs explanation.. we'll u c i said u sux, cos *** told mi tt u were(i thought) tryin to bitch bout mi infront of Mel by sayin some stuff. but then u din noe tt Mel already noes tt, cos i told her like quite some time ago. ya, anybody wld think tt ur spoiling our friendship by doing so.. or wadeva. ya, mayb u meant well.. but since i heard stuff bout u n ****** i started to feel like u kind of diff frm the (your name here) i noe. like ur wearin a mask. but tt doesn't matter. on the whole, i said u sux jus cos i was angry tt u wanted to spoil the friendship btw Mel n i. tt's all. i mayb wrong thou =) i stil smile at u(+ the people hu ignored mi on friday too) wad. "peace" - sounds like lynny lol.

i LOVE :

no.0) Mr RED
no.1) LYNNY
no.1) MELISSA
no.1) VEEEEEEEEKKKKKKKKKKKKKAYYYYYYYYYYYY
no.1) MANDAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
no.2) EVERYONE ELSE (NOT includin _______)

OPEN hse was fun lol!! =)

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Mr hh before n after | Saturday, October 07, 2006

i think he is so gonna kill mi, but i can resist postin this omg!!

BEFORE

AFTER

oh ya, b4 i forget ..
-_-ll

he had 7 stuff on his wrist.. weirdo, tt mus b heavy lol!! =D night everyone!!

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he sux at pool lar!! lol

dance today was kindof fun, i became manda's PUPPY.. -_-ll she's so weird. o.O lol then went to eat carl's jr w kris, vk, MANDA.. lynny din go T_T cos her brother's a MONSTER, tt was wat she said .. -_-ll din wanna go home aft tt so called some ppl, n finally found sum1 nice to acc mi.
Mr hh!!

lol, it's tt retarded face again. =D kk dun say u liao, else u'll b complainin again!! anyway, i din claim wat i'll do!! it's jus tt im NOT like her(u noe hu im tokin bout)!! i feel bad sayin tt. well sum1 was hiddin at some library during 1st 3 mths cos he/she was FRIENDLESS n ANTI-SOCIAL.. sounds like sum1 eh?

n i did the most embarrassing thing ever la, i went into tis shop w him. n he was lookin at trunks o.O but i tot the yellow one was nice. =) but cant really c the words. =D

the fat guy!!

i think i damn slack liao. reached home bout 2 ytd, cos was playin pool. then still woke up early for dance. n pool again. n shop. i think im super women lol.

havin a bad headache now T_T

i tot i look less fat here. then he burst my bubble.. he said sumthin MEAN!! but lol, i cant rmb, ha. BB

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Mr P n choco!! | Thursday, October 05, 2006

omg, i m so screwed la!! math was 3 hrs. but i finished it within the first hr. cos i din even noe how to start those questions!! then i tried for the other 2 hrs. im DEAD. T_T enough bout today..

well, Mr P came to help mi w my physics. i din expect him to come KAP to find mi. heard tt he woke up at 7 ha. but in the end din ask him much, cos he din noe wat is - GMm/2r lol. then b4 we were gg off. he said he wanted to go 2 the cold storage below, so we went. he bought

for mi. wao, choco!! yummy!! lol. then ya i took 985 to sch n he took 174(i guess) to the indo embassy.. sry for all the trouble. >_<

haix. i think tt the only H2 tt i can pass is physics, math is like wth.. i din wanna giv up but i was jus feelin vexed. ya, bout dar(pls refer to the v v v v v first post). ya, it's bout the same prob, it's been draggin for so long. n dance is gonna start la, we'll sure to b quarrel'in again with the same stuff. ALL OVER AGAIN. sigh. well we've not been tokin for quite some time. n quarrelled ytd, cos he felt tt i was neglectin him, but hello, i hav my promos. omg. this is gettin bad.

sighs more*

tmr's econ wish mi luck!!

i wanna b free again, to b able to go out w hu ever i wan, i wan no restrictions, no conditions!! pls set mi free. i dun wan to drag it on for years, n finally finds out that we've hav been waste'in our lives away. i cant act like wat u wan mi to b, i cant b myself anymore!! my whole life is a lie. i've become like tis all because of u, u wanted mi to change, to b the ideal galfren, everything tt's not mi. everytime i get angry, n i cnt do anything, i'll go home n scream at my parents. ya, i need anger management. i m TIRED.

some thing are gone, sec sch is over, forget bout it. damn pissed off.

if i retain, im gonna kill myself. =D

some random pics:

hmm, i din c anything..

i've tried my best to clear my table !!

it was his idea, he wanted to make 7 of them

so they will b

L O Y F A T T

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im a china scholar!! | Tuesday, September 26, 2006

im now using huikee's laptop at the SA hostel!! ha. was supposed to study but then drifted away again(she CLAIMED tt she studied quite alot). not been bloggin for quite some time, so i shall blog now, but no pics, cos i din bring my cable thingy or watsoever. saw Mr P's new hairstyle, so weird, long fringe w well, hmm.. super short hair. i wanted to smile at him, but he din seem to c mi.

oh gosh!!

it's raining now, how m i supposed to go to sch for econs ltr. cries* btw, we're sittin at the table directly opposite Mr P's study table(sort of). but he went out liaoz. wanted so much to tel kenneth that Mr P seemed nicer than wat they think he is like.

being a scholar is so COOL lah!!

i wanna b a scholar my next life!!

till then, wish mi luck for promos. T_T

Mr P is still not back yet.. =(

lvl43 =D

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im BORED =( | Saturday, September 09, 2006

RANDOM PIC OF THE DAY:

my bag*

omg, it's almost 10 n i haven finish my tuition hmwk!! o.O had dinner w daddy, mummy, meimei, n dar =) then daddy sent mi hm. haha. =D they jus came back frm thai ytd!! finally get to hug my hubb aft 5 LONG days. sniff* simply love his HUGS~

izzit pretty? -_-ll e pin.. but i still wan the heart shape 1(hubb noes)

anklet*

frm my honey coated, sugary, fat HUBB

ilu

hh's blog is like diene(lol i meant dying).. ya i noe not funny, but hh thinks tt it's, well he is 1 weird guy -_-ll. days w/o dance is a bit diff.. but at least there's is time to study. if only tis year is O lvls, haix. i'll sure fail my promos. RETAIN? well, 90% there already. T_T deyi dance was so fun.. *takes tissue n wipe tears*

LOL, u can c how bored i m now. sian!! if only money wld drop frm e SKY~ yadeyadeyade.

k, BYE.

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